February 2012
147 posts
I'm starting to see things
oh dear
why does tumblr keep making me post staff tumblr starbucks annoying things over and over again. please stop it.
when i finally get back to uni i am going t go on my excercise bike everyday twice a day
time to do the one thing that will cheer me up even if it is followed by lots of guilt later on…by shit loads of cheap clothes online
i want to go home right fucking now, and crawl up ina ball in bed and never fucking leave
funeral
horrible but amazing day. Still doesn’t feel real. It did for a second when we were following her lovely coffin in to the cathederal. All the police were lined p either side of the path and her firends were waiting just outside and it finally hit me that this was really happening. luckily i had Kirste’s brother Russel and Ashleigh stood either side of me. Anna said to me later that i...
so fucking angry. just want to hurry up and get back to normaility
just want to jump off a fucking cliff
Hardest day of my live
Hopefully ever
thefuckingrev:
I am very bitter and menstrual tonight, just to warn you all.
I am so fucking angry. At everything. I would love to experience just one day of not being depressed and not hating myself and feeling utterly useless. Just one day.
iwillnotgrowup asked: I hope everything goes okay tomorrow. I know it'll be really hard for you and especially for your dad, but I hope it all goes okay and you can give Kirste the funeral and the goodbye she deserves. And you've always got your friends and a brill boyfriend there for you whatever happens, love you bby girl.
I do not want tomorrow to come
I do not want tomorrow to come I do not want tomorrow to come I do not want tomorrow to come I do not want tomorrow to come I do not want tomorrow to come I do not want tomorrow to come I do not want tomorrow to come I do not want tomorrow to come I do not want tomorrow to come
HUZZAH
I’m aneamic again. Finally have something to blame being constantly tired and dizzy on :) in other news i’d like to punch my residence officer. she has sent me a bitchy email saying a man is coming to sort the mould on my windows out in my room tomorrow so not to refuse him entry again.. well i have news for her, i didn’t refuse him entery in the first place considering i...
oh and another nob on facebook..
him: U coming out tonight
me: Ha, hello. no i’m in essex
him: wat u doing in essex ure mising the big night out
me: attending my step mothers funeral. does every college have a big ngiht out?
him: yeah all at once.
NOB
just saw someone’s face and remembered how much of a dick they were. shame i can’t get away with never talking to them again or even deleting they’re face off face book
i feel pretty bloody useless being here. i guess that’s mainly because there is nothing anyone can say or do to make my dad feel any better. but i’ve learnt the one thing i can do to help is cook. in fact i was well pleased last night, he’s not eating much at all but i convinved him he’s love some bangers and mash. and when he’d finished it all ( first meal...
thanks anon person
:)
Anonymous asked: what's your favourite sandwhich? what was the best day of your life? annnnd whats your stance on religion?
not to sound desperate
but someone ask me something please, i’m mega bored and need distracting from feeling like pooh. i know you won’t but it would be nice if someone did
Anonymous asked: who's funeral is it?
i’m going to go and sit with kirstes epic big box of all her lovely beads and thinks and make some jewelery. i think she’s be fine if not happy with that. thw worst thing about being here is bein constantly worried that what ever i do might have/be offended/offend her, whether i’m justw ashing the pots or borrowing her straightners, i know she’s probably think stop being...
well
i feel like pooh, and every minute the funeral gets closer and closer. don’t know how i’m going to deal with this. any advice on how the fuck to deal with this would be much appreciated (honestly)
downbythedark:
winds me up when people get proper up their own arses about music. OOOH I’VE KNOWN THIS BAND FOR YEARS BEFORE THEY BECAME MAINSTREAM I AM BETTER THAN EVERYONE, ANYONE MAINSTREAM IS SHIT LOL. erm, sit down shut up, everyone has their own taste and god forbid people like mainstream. shut the fuck up man.
i feel like everyone’s forgotten about me
do you think birds feel guilty
like in lord of the rings, when people get shot with a bow and arrow and it’s their fault beause it’s their feathers that make the bow fire. if i was a bird and understood this i’d be quite upset